Walking Through My New Front Door Didn't Seem Like Home, Back In Twinbrook. But I'm Not There Anymore...I'm Not With My Son Anymore. He's All Grown Up Now, He Doesn't Need His Mommy As Much As He Use To.
The First Thing I Do Is Flip On The Television. There Was No Satisfaction. I Only Had One Channel, Which Brought Back The Pain I Felt Several Years Back. I Promise, I'll Only Be Here Until I Talk To Her. Then I'll Leave Here For Home.
This Show Made Me Glance Down At My Hand. The Ring Is Still There, Even Though He Had Left Years Ago. I Can't Bring Him Back, Nobody Can. He's Forever Gone. I Remember When He Was Here, With Me And Kyle. Telling Kyle He'd Live Forever Until Our Son Discovered Death Was Unstoppable. I Love Sinbad, I Miss Him. I Miss Having Kyle Around. I Miss Our Park...
He Had Told Me To Let My Hair Flow And Express Myself. I Remember Telling Him He Wouldn't Love The Real Me. Though He Disagreed And Said He'd Love Me No Matter What.
Those Were The Days When I'd Glance Down At My Ring And Thank God That He Gave Me This Life.
Kyle Was Little Then, He'd Love Running Away From Me To Go Up Into The Field Nearby. He Loved The Horses That Sometimes Ran By, So We'd Always Go Up And Check.
If We Were Lucky A Few Would Stop By. Kyle Would Run After Them And Giggle When They Dashed Off.
Kyle And Sinbad Were My Family...They Were What Kept Me...Well, Myself. I Felt As If I Couldn't Live Without Them. And Look At Me Now, My Sons In A Small Town While I'm In The City. I Always Thought It'd Be The Other Way Around.
Those Days...At
Our Park, Having
Our Family Picnics, Spending Time With
Our Son. I Miss The Days Where We Could Do That, Where We Could Celebrate A Day With No Reason And Just Forget About Tomorrow.
I Had To Hold Back My Tears. I Came Here To Do Something, And I'm Going To Do It. It's My First Day In Bridgeport And My First Day In This House. This Has Been Going By Faster Than I Expected. Cameron Had Given Me The Names Of His Sisters. I Only Need To Talk To One More Then I Can Go Back Home And See My Son.
I Had Typed Her Name Into The Search Bar And Looked Through The Results.
Autumn Vanity -- 21 Years Old Bridgeport.
It Was A Profile Of Some Unknown Website, The Picture Of A Beautiful Blonde Girl Popped Up.
Am I Really Related To Her? Is She Really My Niece? She Does Kind Of Look Like Her Mother...But Blonde Hair? Marc Wasn't Blonde... There Was A List Of Friends, Cameron's Name Was There. She Must Be His Sister. I Skimmed Her Profile Some More, There Were So Many Statuses. But One Stood Our To Me.
Tomorrows the big day!! I can't wait!!
Big Day?
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Its My Wedding Day, Its My Wedding Day, Its My Wedding Day. Today's The Day Where I'm Required To Look Beautiful. The Day I Will Remember For The Rest Of My Life.
I Love Oliver More Than Anything. He's My World, I Wouldn't Be The Same Without Him. He's Been My Lifelong Friend, Now He's Going To Be My Husband.
I Couldn't Be Happier.
The Wedding Took Place At The Butterfly Esplanade. I Did My Best To Match My Mothers And Grandmothers Dress, Also The Location.
Infinity Had Gotten Big, I Was Afraid Of Her Giving Birth During The Ceremony. But Everybody Showed Up. Though Cameron Was Busy With Work Calls, He Still Took The Time To Celebrate.
Auburn Was There
Hannah, The Replica Of Her Mother
August's Fiance, Aaron
Jeffrey, His Dad Wasn't Here For Some Reason
Though A Little Late, August.
Even Ollie's Mom Showed Up, Trying To Appear Human As He Told Me Years Ago.
Then Came The Time We Slid The Rings On Eachothers Fingers...
*Later That Night*
We Had Promised Eachother We'd Be Physical On Our Wedding Night, Our First Time As A Couple. I Had Been Originally Saving Myself For Marriage, But The Drunken Side Of Me Had Disagreed. In A Way I Had To Thank My Emotions That Night, If We Hadn't Gone Out Drinking I Wouldn't Be Here In His Arms, Ready To Spend Forever With Ollie. My Ollie.
He Was The Beginning Of My Forever, And I Was The Beginning Of His Too.
*The Next Morning*
I Had Gotten A Call From Infinity That Morning. She Gave Birth To 3 Beautiful Girls On My Wedding Night. Stella
Sarah
And Shawn. They Were All Stunning.
I Had Spent My Morning Talking To My Mothers Grave. "I Got Married Yesterday, Mom. Me And Ollie Are Spending The Rest Of Our Lives Together. Everybody Was There, Cameron And His Family, Infinity And Jeffrey, The Girls..."
"...I'm So Excited, I Had Always Dreamed Of The Best Wedding. But This Was Even Better! Did You Feel This Way When You And Daddy Got Married? Did You Feel Like You Were Standing On Top Of The World, Instead Of Having It On Your Shoulders? Happier Than You Have Ever Been?"
"I -- I Just Wish You Were There To See Me So Happy. To See Me Begin My Forever With Ollie. I Miss You, Mommy. I Wanted You To Be There."
At That Moment My Stomach Started To Churn, I Quickly Ran To The Bathroom. Questions Whirled Through My Mind As I Wondered How I Had Gotten Sick.
That Night I Had Discovered I Was Pregnant. I Was Beyond Scared But At The Same Time Excited.
I Had To Tell Ollie As Soon As Possible. So I Told Him The News On The Following Morning.
"Ollie, I Have Some News."
"Is Something Wrong, A?"
"No, Nothings Wrong. It's Just..." I Cut Myself Off.
"Autumn?"
I Couldn't Find The Words To Say It Without Being Original. I Just Rubbed My Stomach In Front Of Him.
"You're Not...Are You?"
"I Am, Ollie. You're Going To Be A Daddy."
I Could Tell He Was Beyond Excited. But I Knew He Was Just As Scared As I Was, Too. We Had Never Experienced Anything Like Parenthood Before.
Pregnancy Seemed To Fly By Quickly. I Was Getting Close To The Due Date Every Day And The Days Seemed Like Minutes.
We Had Been Expecting A Son, And Changed Ollie's Old Empty Room Into A Nursery.
But One Day An Elderly Woman Came To Visit Me. I Have Seen Pictures Of My Grandparents Before, I Could Say She Resembled My Grandfather In The Strangest Way.
"Excuse Me, Are You Autumn Vanity?"
Autumn: "Um, Yes. Who Are You?"
"My Name Is Echo Vanity, I Believe I'm Your Aunt."
Autumn: "My Aunt? Are You Sure?"
Echo: "Yes, I'm Sure. I'm Your Mother, Happy's, Youngest Sister."
Autumn: "Wait, So You're...Infinity's Mother?"
Echo: "No, No. My Name Is Echo, You've Never Met My Son."
Autumn: "W -- Why Are You Here?"
Echo: "I Already Spoke With Infinity, And Your Sisters. Cameron, Too. I Wanted To Let All Of You Know That I'm Here For You Guys. I Know It's Been Tough Since Your Parents Passed Away. I Felt Like I Have To Be Included In Your Life Somehow. I Like In Twinbrook, Where You're Parents Grew Up. I'd Be Happy To Fly Down Anytime If You Need Me. I Just Can't Stay Here, My Sons Back In My Home Town."
Autumn: "I Understand, Echo. I Do. I'd Be Happy To Have You Around. Come Down Anytime You'd Like, You Could Visit. Meet My Husband, My Baby... "
Echo: "Wait, You Have A Baby?"
Autumn: "No, Not Yet. As You Can See I'm Expecting."
Echo: "Oh, That's Great! Do You Mind If I...?"
Autumn: "Oh No Not At All."
Echo: "I'd Love To Meet Him When He Gets Here..."
Autumn: "You Think My Baby's A He, Too?"
Echo: "I Know He's A Boy, Genetics. My Aunt Could Tell Just By Feeling The Stomach Too. For All You Know It Could've Passed Down To You Too."
She Had Left Shortly After. I Had Heard My Mother Mention Echo Before. I Immediately Understood How She Was Her Favorite Sister.
That Night I Had Went Into The City To Sell My Produce. Ollie Had Decided To Stay Home So He Could Find More Vegetarian Recipes For Me. He Was Just Too Sweet.
When I Walked Out Of The Store I Had Noticed The Trashy Type Of Girl Standing Around, I Wasn't Surprised. They're Easily Found Around The City.
But I Had Walked Out Of The Subway Doors Feeling A Sudden Pain In My Stomach. I Thought It Was Nothing But It Kept Getting Worse. Only One Thing Could Explain It.
The Baby Was Coming.
